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So I am starting this post just because. I have been having a rough couple of weeks. I am struggling emotionally and even am struggling here on BM. I don't know if any of my good friends are feeling the same way. Hope so. Hope I am not alone.

~~Joleene (36)~~
Wife of Dan (32)
Stepmom to Marcos 8
HSG done 06/09/09 ALL CLEAR!!
Mucinex & Preseed
Vitamin B6 200 mg
Cycle 1 Clomid 50 mg cd 5-9 bfn
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/276bac

You know I am girl! YAY, I found you! :)

~ Melanie ~
me (27), DH (28)

TTC #1 May '08
DH: B-complex, zinc, Vit E for low count/motility
Clomid:
June-Nov: 50 mg CD5-9
B6 200mg/day
HSG done 6/26/09: ALL CLEAR!
CD3 b/w 10/9/09: NORMAL!
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/21e07a

Hi beautiful girls. Have I told you lately that I love you? (I love Rod Stewart)

Joleene and Mel, I'm sorry that you have been down lately. Please know happy, sad, mad or glad...I am here for both of you anytime.

Tammy

mom to Curtis (18)
Baby Boy #2 due 1/15/10 (Carter Robert)

Tammy you are wonderful! Do you know that? Ya, I just don't know what to think of everything. Some days I am down, other days I am like eh, who cares? I vascillate between the two. Today is a downer day. I look around me and I wonder Why me? I usually try to avoid this kind of thinking because immediately my mom's voice pops into my head and she is saying, "Why not you?" I believe that God won't give me more than I can handle, but it all seems overwhelming today.

Mel, You rock! It is so comforting to know I can call ya and rant!

~~Joleene (36)~~
Wife of Dan (32)
Stepmom to Marcos 8
HSG done 06/09/09 ALL CLEAR!!
Mucinex & Preseed
Vitamin B6 200 mg
Cycle 1 Clomid 50 mg cd 5-9 bfn
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/276bac

Joleene, your mom has the right idea, however, it still doesn't make it hurt any less. (((hugs))). Oh any by the way, I think you are pretty wonderful too :)

Not every day has to be a "good" day. It's totally all right to have a bad day and even feel sorry for yourself every once in a while. You know in your heart that you will be a mom some day, but that doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt today.

Love you girl!

Tammy

mom to Curtis (18)
Baby Boy #2 due 1/15/10 (Carter Robert)

Thanks Tammy! I keep thinking about how long I waited to meet Dan and get married. He was worth waiting for. This will be too. I am waiting to get an article that Amanda sent me about some experimental medicine that some doctors are trying. If it looks promising, I am taking the article in to my doctor and am going to make him try it. We shall see.

~~Joleene (36)~~
Wife of Dan (32)
Stepmom to Marcos 8
HSG done 06/09/09 ALL CLEAR!!
Mucinex & Preseed
Vitamin B6 200 mg
Cycle 1 Clomid 50 mg cd 5-9 bfn
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/276bac

hey girls!

i have those sad days too, it sucks! i even hate it worse when i come on BM to look for support and there is so much unneeded drama! it is hard enough having infertility and any kind of drama you can cut out of your life the better. i had a rough morning with the "why me's" i even felt like cussing and i dont cuss, i might of even said one in my head...LOL it even sucks worse because my DH has to do some training a couple hours away from here tues, wed, and thurs for 8 weeks so i dont have anyone here to cuddle with to make me feel better! :) i have a great DH, (wade) on our O week he is even going to drive back in forth for the days we HAVE to BD.

Jessica

july-oct: clomid 100mg cd 3-7
nov: clomid 150mg cd 2-6
june: Lap-removed endo
sept: PCT- normal
DH's SA- normal
oct: HSG- clear
cheri: G/OCT
brooke: twins/B/NOV-JAN
ruby: twins/B:G-NOV

http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/258878

i forgot to say, he is working 12 hours shifts on those days he is away so the days we have to BD he will get home, BD, go to sleep for 6 hours, get up and go back to work and do it all over the next day. he wants a baby so bad too! good thing it will only be a couple days he will have to do that, but it will suck

Jessica

july-oct: clomid 100mg cd 3-7
nov: clomid 150mg cd 2-6
june: Lap-removed endo
sept: PCT- normal
DH's SA- normal
oct: HSG- clear
cheri: G/OCT
brooke: twins/B/NOV-JAN
ruby: twins/B:G-NOV

http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/258878

Tammy - I LOVE Rod Stewart too! My Dad & I danced to his version of "You Look Wonderful Tonight." It was sweet! :)

Jessica - wow! Kudos to Wade, that will be a LONG couple of days! But SO worth it!!!

~ Melanie ~
me (27), DH (28)

TTC #1 May '08
DH: B-complex, zinc, Vit E for low count/motility
Clomid:
June-Nov: 50 mg CD5-9
B6 200mg/day
HSG done 6/26/09: ALL CLEAR!
CD3 b/w 10/9/09: NORMAL!
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/21e07a

Ok, so now Rod is running through my head! And I just posted on Mel's thread and am also humming a Michael Jackson song. Stupid ADD!!

Jess~ Wade is awesome! What a great guy. My fingers are crossed for ya. In fact, my fingers are crossed for all of us. We do deserve it. Our hubbies deserve it too. Tammy, keep giving us this support. You know what to say to us to really help.

I woke up this morning with a horrible dream that Dan and I were in college together (never happened in real life as I just met him two years ago) but we were best friends, I was in love with him, and he was marrying another woman. It was so real! I woke up with the hugest lump in my throat and pressure on my chest. I have been near tears all day. Aren't dreams weird? And isn't it weird how much they can affect us?

~~Joleene (36)~~
Wife of Dan (32)
Stepmom to Marcos 8
HSG done 06/09/09 ALL CLEAR!!
Mucinex & Preseed
Vitamin B6 200 mg
Cycle 1 Clomid 50 mg cd 5-9 bfn
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/276bac

Jessica, you have the sweetest husband! Lucky girl. I know there is NO WAY my dh would have drove two hours each way to give me sex while we were trying. I hope that this is your only month of him having to drive two hours back and forth because you get your bfp! I posted in the other thread, but I definitely think you should do the HSG on cd13. As I said, I would just think about doing it early in the am so you have some recovery time before you have to diddle.

Mel, isn't Rod the best? He's so weird looking, but he has the sexiest voice. He sings great feel good love songs.

Joleene, that is a terrible dream! Thank God it's not true otherwise your bm friends would have to open up a can of whoop ass and steal your man away from the other woman's claws. Oh, and don't even get me started about Michael Jackson....LOVE HIM!!

Tammy

mom to Curtis (18)
Baby Boy #2 due 1/15/10 (Carter Robert)

Right Tammy? They just don't make singers like they used to. And I told Dan that the rule is he can't marry anyone else...EVER! He laughed, bless his heart.

~~Joleene (36)~~
Wife of Dan (32)
Stepmom to Marcos 8
HSG done 06/09/09 ALL CLEAR!!
Mucinex & Preseed
Vitamin B6 200 mg
Cycle 1 Clomid 50 mg cd 5-9 bfn
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/276bac

FYI * I started a new post to the Crazy 8's 2WW. There's too much shit going on with the other thread so I wanted to start a new one to get away from the negativity. If ya'll want to come over, I'll be there!

My FertilChart™

http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/22f6ce

Amy {31} & Robbie {29} - Married March 12, 2005
Mommy to my Babies - Tonto Roberto {5} & Harley Marie {2}
TTC #1 w/PCOS, a Tilted Uterus, Long Cycles and Late Ovulation!
Metformin 2000mg and Prenatals

TAMMY * I just can't believe how far along you are! It seems likes yesterday you got your BFP. Time sure does fly. :o(

http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/22f6ce

Amy {31} & Robbie {29} - Married March 12, 2005
Mommy to my Babies - Tonto Roberto {5} & Harley Marie {2}
TTC #1 w/PCOS, a Tilted Uterus, Long Cycles and Late Ovulation!
Metformin 2000mg and Prenatals

Mel- Thanks for telling me about this thread... I was losing my mind this evening.. in between clomid and my DHs twin telling us she is preggo w/ #3 tonight I have been a mess.

Jo- Sweetie I am so sorry you are having a rough time. It is so hard going through what we go through... the why me's are the worst. I'm glad Amanda sent you some info that may be useful to you. :) She is a gem!

I really dislike dreams like that! It is such a relief to wake up and realize it isn't real.

Tammy- You are so wonderful..I love all of your posts even if they don't have anything to do w/ me :)
How have you been feeling sweetie? (and now I have me some rod stewart in my head)

Jess- Hey girlie.! what a wonderful DH you have :) It makes this process less stressful when they are fully on board with us. Yay for Wade! (yech sounded like a cheer.. my girls would be proud) haha

Amy- Thanks for starting a new thread. I should have just ignored it all.. but oh well what is done is done. Hope everything is good with you girlie!

-Haley-
Me - 27 - Looong cycles after BCP
DH- 29 - SA- Great
TTC #1 since May 2008
unexplained Infertility
Clomid 100- November
All CLEAR.. after... HSG 9/17/09!
Chart:
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/20e9a4

Morning Ladies! Just a quick post from my phone as I am teaching all day today at our Fal training. I will do personals once I am home. Hate the drama & it just wasn't needed this month..too many need support right now & not have to deal with the extra drama. Have a great day ladies & I'll see you on later!

My FertilChart™

Shannon (29) DH (29)
TTC #1 since April 09 Irregular cycles
Prenatal Vit & 81mg baby aspirin
Mom to 4 fur babies Peaches, Titan, Gabby & Dottie
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/27b983
Jenny- Aug/Boy
Cheri - Nov//Boy
Brooke - Nov/Dec/Girl

Hi girls....I'm here don't worry!!! LOL....

just kidding.....Oh it feels so peaceful and
lovely in this thread!!! Great idea!!!!!

Hang in there girlies...Really....try to hang on
with me...if you all fall, I'll fall....so consider it your
burden to keep me going!!!

xxoo

My FertilChart™

**jenn (36) & curt (43)**
ttc naturally since sept 2006
FF chart: http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/1f7858
Predictions
Cheri Aug girl
Jenny Sept/Oct girl
Brooke: "girl VERY SOON, next 2 months, no later than January."

Jenn~ I can carry today. My moment of "why-meitis" has passed and the sun is out today. You will not fall on my watch!!

Shannon~ I am so glad you are here. I feel like I cana take a deep breath today! Yeehaw!!

~~Joleene (36)~~
Wife of Dan (32)
Stepmom to Marcos 8
HSG done 06/09/09 ALL CLEAR!!
Mucinex & Preseed
Vitamin B6 200 mg
Cycle 1 Clomid 50 mg cd 5-9 bfn
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/276bac

Glad you are feeling better Joleene!

Hi Jen! I was thinking about you and wondering how you were doing! :) Jo is right you will not fall.

This thread makes my heart so light and happy...good Idea girl!

Shannon- Glad you are here.. I missed your posts.

Mel- How are you today girl?

-Haley-
Me - 27 - Looong cycles after BCP
DH- 29 - SA- Great
TTC #1 since May 2008
unexplained Infertility
Clomid 100- November
All CLEAR.. after... HSG 9/17/09!
Chart:
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/20e9a4

JOLEENE-- i know how you feel, sweetie. glad today is a better day!

JESSICA-- glad to see you! i've missed your smiling face. :) good for wade. i love how our husbands will do all they can to make us happy. you've got a winner there. ;)

HALEY-- hang in there. sorry about family preggo news... i got some recently as well, and i know how hard it can be.

CRISTY-- are you still sick? how you feeling???

AFM-- i have to say i was just laughing and laughing at all the drama. amateur drama, really. remember the crazy stuff with anisa (was that her name?) and her sister?? this is child's play by comparison. and so unnecessary. i suppose if i had been more dependant on the 2ww thread i would be more upset, but i'd given up that thread long ago...
i've been feelin' alright lately, but i have to admit it's because i'm starting to come to peace with the fact that this just might not happen again for me. it's not that i'm not completely devastated with the way my life has turned, i think i've just been through the other stages of grief: you know, denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and now i think i'm finally entering acceptance. i've started to stop thinking of this as a weakness, and rather that God has given me this trial because He knows i'm STRONG enough. so really i should take it as a compliment. LOL ;)
"O my Father, if this cup may not pass away from me, except I drink it, thy will be done." Matthew 26:42
i'm trying to not just push my way through this challenge in life, but to 'drink it'/embrace it. it's not easy, but i'm trying.