My husband & I have been trying to conceive for 3 years now.   This past summer I reached a point of despair and hopelessness and stress that kept me from having any hope of ever conceiving.  Much of the problem was my job that is extremely high stress & has kept me on-call 24/7 for the past 3 ½ years.  Out of frantic drama, I ran to the med center to get on depression pills, hoping they would help me cope with the rotten job, the mess of my marriage and the stress and incompetence of not conceiving.  Drugs and I do not mix well and after attempting four weeks of Prozac I dropped it and decided to make changes instead of drug myself into a daze of nonchalance.

     I have given my notice to my job & am searching for a new career.  This step that I took about two months ago propelled me into a rebirth.   I am now trying to put love and kindness back into my marriage and myself.  I am ready and excited to get back on the healthy body mode of nutrition and relaxation and try to gain weight.  In the past I have attempted acupuncture, weight gain, cutting down on exercise, quitting caffeine and alcohol & upping my nutritional intake.  Although many of these things are good, I did not keep up with them for long periods of time.  This time I am ready to take a deep, relaxing & fulfilling breath and take on health and love with the hopes of conceiving.  I am going to give it 8 months.  By next spring my husband and I will evaluate other options.  Until then, I am going to try to relax and be patient and realize that weather I conceive or not, this is good for me, my husband and our marriage.